HATE!

I hate lots of things today.

I hate that everything always seems to go wrong for me.
that every time something goes wrong, it's usually my fault!
I hate that I have so much on my mind.
I hate that I try to get angry when i get sad, or afraid.
I hate that I can't accept my emotions as they are and be able to say THIS is how I FEEL.
I hate that I feel like I have no control in my life.
Even though I am completely in control.
I hate that I hope.
I hate that I have been hurt so many times that I am scared to hope.
I hate that I keep using the words I HATE.
I hate that i am so f***ing sad right now. I said it! I am SAD!